Outrageous

A handful of lump inside my troath...so huge that i can't spit it out...so still that i can't move it out...i clench my fist then...toast it to the hard wall...quiet...no respond...and of course it doesn't get any better...it sinks deep down...then i choke ...freezing..

Untitle 'the sequel'

O Allah musuh-musuh itu kini merasuk semakin dalam ke rongga dadaku,, mereka semakin banyak,, mereka menari-nari dan menertawakan kesakitanku,, mereka mengetahui dengan jelas kelemahanku,, Sekarang, sekali lagi aku tanyakan bagaimana seharusnya aku bertindak?!,, Ketika musuh itu telah menemukan kunci yang dari dulu ku sembunyikan dengan rapi,, aku mohon jauhkan mereka dari hadapanku,, tutuplah pengetahuan mereka akan diriku,, jadikan aku sebongkah batu yang tidak menarik perhatian mereka,,berikan aku kemampuan dan kemauan untuk mengalahkan kesombongan mereka,, dan aku akan sangat berterima kasih jika Engkau mempercayakan anugerah Mu kepadaku,, O Allah Engkaulah satu-satunya penunjuk jalan dan penyelamat ku,,

Tak Ada Judul

Nafsuku selalu berusaha mengajakku ke jalan kecelakaan
Jadi penyakitku dan kenyerianku sangat banyak

Bagaimana semestinya aku bertindak??!
Jika musuh itu menyelinap dicelah-celah tulang igaku
Menyedot sedikit demi sedikit kekuatan dan kesabaranku

Tidak ada peristiwa kecuali pikiran yang sulit berpaling
Tidak ada kengerian kecuali hati yang sulit berpaling
Hati yang sulit belajar

Yang lain hanyalah bualan dan dongeng-dongeng belaka

Unwritten

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Yes I have...Still...

To draw on water is a hard thing to do
something that against the nature
it will sink slowly
deep down…….
you will not see the line
yeah you should realize that
though you try to work on it
still it wont work
still…….
it will never be enough
That’s the exact life association
But……
just like before life goes on
carrying you with it
forcing you to smile on everyone
Be grateful if you can feel the pain
It proves that you’re just a poor little creature
A fragile one
Just remember….
There is blessing in everything
the pain, the guilty will pass by
that’s just something to get your feet back on the ground
the things to strengthen you up
So stand up tall coz you have Him
one thing for sure……..
the Only Healer
the Real Companion
the Eternal Good
the Greatest
Have faith!

Hati dan Dunia

Dalam keheningan kita memberi perhatian penuh pada hidup kita, pada kenangan-kenangan kita dan pada detail kehidupan kita...hal-hal kecil bisa membuat kita menderita karena hal-hal kecil lah yang bisa membuat kita bahagia,,, ketakutan adalah sebuah hal kecil dan sekaligus hal besar yang bisa menciutkan hati,, sebenarnya ketakutan tercipta karena pikiranmu sendiri yang terlalu cepat menerka,,,dewasalah,,,karena akan ada lebih banyak ketakutan diluar sana yang siap menyambutmu dan melumatkan hati dan pikiranmu hingga mengerucut jika kau tidak benar-benar siap,,,hadapilah dengan tegar dan kau akan menemukanbahwa ketakutan hanyalah sebuah jalan yang harus ditempuh untuk membentuk dirimu yang kokoh dan berpengetahuan,,,tepat seperti yang dikatakan Walt Whitman "Bukan aku, bukan orang lain, yang bisa menempuh jalan itu bagimu. Kau harus menjalaninya sendiri"

Ain't Nothing Else Matter

My song of all time
By Metallica

So Close No Matter How Far
Couldn't Be Much More From The Heart
Forever Trusting Who We Are
And Nothing Else Matters

Never Opened Myself This Way
Life Is Ours, We Live It Our Way
All These Words I Don't Just Say
And Nothing Else Matters

Trust I Seek And I Find In You
Every Day For Us Something New
Open Mind For A Different View
And Nothing Else Matters

Never Cared For What They Do
Never Cared For What They Know
But I Know


So Close No Matter How Far
Couldn't Be Much More From The Heart
Forever Trusting Who We Are
And Nothing Else Matters

Never Cared For What They Do
Never Cared For What They Know
But I Know


Never Opened Myself This Way
Life Is Ours, We Live It Our Way
All These Words I Don't Just Say

Trust I Seek And I Find In You
Every Day For Us Something New
Open Mind For A Different View
And Nothing Else Matters

Never Cared For What They Say
Never Cared For Games They Play
Never Cared For What They Do
Never Cared For What They Know
And I Know


So Close No Matter How Far
Couldn't Be Much More From The Heart
Forever Trusting Who We Are
No Nothing Else Matters

No Doubt

The only way to grow up is to carry on with your life, wake up every morning with a glass of coffee maybe be a little help for some people, but not for me. I stumble and down so many times, but I get up coz I know exactly what I got to do in life. Nothing is worthless, although circumstances sometimes push me to do something that I don’t want to do,, perfectly strange things,, just like I what I do right now, taking chances in life. I want to be a hunter again, to see the world with my very own eyes,, again,,

Now What??!!

After all, still it makes me want to puke.. the feeling that i can't get away with... i know it's difficult but this is real........please God help me!!